Warm Fuzzies
R and I seem to have entered some new phase of our relationship lately, and it’s wonderful. We’re extremely lovey-dovey, all cuddly etc, and it’s very special. I keep looking at her and realising afresh how much she means to me – and I tell her so. R does the same, and it affects my whole day 
I’m not sure exactly what’s triggered it, but I think perhaps some of it is that both of us have taken a further step within ourselves, and let go of some of that last bit of self defence – you know that piece of yourself you keep seperate so you still have a way out. Trust and closeness develop over time, and while we’ve always trusted each other, there’s a deeper and more abiding trust that comes from two hearts truly recognising each other, and admitting those feelings without reservation. It’s at that point that you’re wholly dependant on each other – I wish for no-one else in my life, and if I were without R I know beyond a shadow of a doubt I’d be lost. Everything I think about involves her – when I see something beautiful I think about what she’d say, or that I’d like to share it with her. It’s not a chore to make sure I think about her wishes when I’m making plans, as I no longer think about just me. My life is so wrapped up in R and the munchkin that anything else seems out of place – and it’s a rather excessively wonderful place to be
We had another snuggly afternoon today, once the muppet was in bed for his afternoon snooze. R was going to read lying on the bed, so I jumped on to claim a nuggle tax before going back to my book. I decided I shouldn’t go to sleep there, as I want to sleep reasonably early tonight (cranking things up at the gym with an extra set of the circuit tomorrow) but eventually I decided not to deny myself and just snuggled down.
The interesting thing is, no matter what else I had planned for whiling away my weekend, I never feel that time spent snuggling or sleeping next to R is misspent or wasted. It seems kind of like an investment of sorts – re-charging the nuggle batteries at the same time as putting some focused effort into a non verbal confirmation of just how I feel about her. Makes me very happy Plus she’s the snuggliest woman in the world, so it’s all good!
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Awww, you’re so sweet
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Too much information!!!
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Haha. You won’t stop him. He’d be quite happy to tell you all that to your face let alone in his own blog. You might just have to take what you get.
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Hah! That was quite restrained if you ask me… >:)[Reply]